The Globe Run For Home last July 19, 2009 was the first time I’d be running alone. My usual running mate had decided to run a 10K, instead of 5K, at the almost-last-minute. I was a little anxious…it’s not exactly my cup of tea to be waiting alone for my turn to run…but more than that, I felt a little sad…a mild case of separation anxiety, if you may. When we arrived, I was almost frantically searching the sea of runners for anyone I know, specifically orange takbo.ph clad 5K-ers…but saw no one. Oh well, so I joined the 10K runners til gun-off, then I was alone…I felt so very sad and lonely…and more than that, I felt a little awkward, lost and stupid, too (since I was pushed by the wave of excited runners to the very front…with the elites). When the gun went off, I was relieved. Now, it’s alright for me to be alone. I lost my jitters and concentrated on finishing the course. Unfortunately, though, when I neared the finish line, I got confused as to which timer to check…trust me to get confused at the simplest things…I’m cute and charming that way (I annoy people, too, with this trait, but I’d rather think of myself as cute and charming). One of the timers said an hour something. Nope, not that one, I knew I was slow…but I knew enough I wasn’t THAT slow. The other said 45 or 46 mins…I was aghast…so I thought maybe, it’s the other one, it said 35 or 36 something…I couldn’t believe I’d ran that fast. So it must’ve been 46 minutes. I stopped running, slowed to a walk, and hung my head in dejection. I wanted to cry. I was so disappointed with myself. I hated my run. I wanted to go home. I didn’t want to see anyone anymore after that. So then I dragged myself slowly back to the car to get the camera, cool off, grab a drink and collect my thoughts. I went back to the race area, hopefully to catch a pic of my running buddy cross the finish line. Unfortunately, even for this small task, I was too slow. I’d missed it already. Oh well. I was seriously considering skipping meeting up and waiting for the other takbo peeps, but I’d promised Timmy I’d stick around after the race, so I did. Which turned out to be that race’s saving grace. The laughter, camaraderie, antics and overall air of enthusiasm and outpouring of support for one another was infectious…even for someone as uberly negatively charged as me. My spirits lifted somewhat (I heal slowly…I was telling Timmy a couple of minutes ago, I’m a girl and I’m entitled to be dramatic and emotional…and just about now, I LOVE being a girl and all the excuses that come with it 😛 ). I didn’t feel so alone anymore 🙂 (yup, that’s a little smile 🙂 ).
I guess I’ll have to learn to fly by myself now. Oh, wait, I have to learn how to fly first nga pala…dang it… 😀
Carlo, it was great seeing you again…and for a longer time this time…may pics pa to boot! 😀 Congrats on another PR! And thanks for your offer to pace me in my first 10K, whenever that will be (if it will ever be, that is 😛 )
Jet, finally, we meet 😀 I’m glad you like the new layout 🙂
Mhel, grabe, your daughter is sooooooooo cute!!!
Bryan, I’m proud of you 🙂 Monster boo! 😛 Thanks for putting up with me…it’s a mega-feat, I know, and you deserve a medal and podium finish for it! 😛
Marga, seeing you is like a breath of fresh air…ewan ko ba! gumagaan pakiramdam ko lagi pag-nakikita o nakakausap kita 😀
Luis, I hope your knees are (or knee’s?) okay na 😦 I hate it when anyone gets injured 😦 Congrats for finishing despite the pain, though…that was still a loooong way to go…it’s amazing how you still pushed on 🙂
Patrick, super thanks for the early morning text dedicating your run to me…soooo touched 🙂 And congrats on your run…I don’t know if it was a PR for you or not, but, my gosh ang bilis mo! 😛
Dennis, thanks for offering, too, to pace me for my first 10K…in case mapagod na si Carlo kakakwento, ikaw naman 😛
Rod, ang init talaga! ba’t ka naka-jacket? 😛 sorry, bad race for me 😦 bad bad time 😦 should’ve chatted with you again the night before my run 😦
Lorie, like Jet, nagkita na rin tayo! 😀
Timmy, we didn’t get to talk na after the race, but I loved your blog (misery loves company…bwahahha!!)…it helped make me feel I’m not the only one…
…and to the entire Takbo.ph gang, I’m glad to have known you…you saved that race from being a total wreck for me 😛
you saved my (race) day 🙂